Monday, October 16, 2006

Deer at Home


It was 24 degrees this morning at 6:26, and had warmed to 27 by 8:30. The lawn was white with frost and squirrels ran from tree to tree while my dog danced in front of the sliding glass door. She loves to chase squirrels.

There was a buck behind the house yesterday afternoon. I've seen a few huge ones lately, eight points, and even a 10. But, usually there is just a solitary doe amongst cut tree tops and the chirping of chipmunks.


Dusk in the Appalachians

Flies buzz through first frost.
In my backyard
a doe licks
at a half-dissolved salt block
on a hickory stump,
residue stained into rotting bark
and sacks of spider eggs.

Yearlings and spikes fight for dominance in goldenrod.
The deer flicks her tongue across her lips
and into her nose like my grandfather’s Holsteins
sold five years ago
for dog food, toys and treats,
shot in the head
like this doe come November.

She fades with sun and laps
the square of white,
the neighbor’s cows moaning
in the field behind her.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Toddlers and Clovis Culture

My son's birthday party went really well, despite the fact that my husband and I were running behind. He got plently of clothes and toys, but punked out halfway through the party. Turning two is tough. I can't help but think about the people of the past, the little boys, toddlers, who lived off the land, who wandered from place to place, who played with rocks, sticks, leaves, and bones. Over 10,000 years ago people lived in America and hunted mammoths. I think of these Paleoindians often: did they celebrate birthdays? Did the women hunt? Did men cook and sew? Did the little boys throw stones, like my son throws miniature metal tractors? A prose poem, then, to these ancient peoples known as Clovis, based on an archaeological site in New Mexico.


Blackwater Draw, 8,900 B.C.

I

In the grasslands of the Llano Estacado he crouched, hearing more acute than a mother dire wolf suckling her sons. Lemon quartz tinsel slumbered beneath the smooth tops of the short pines and dotting of spruce lining the open plains, almost ready to cast warmth onto the cricket crawling across his toe, noiseless body reflecting a hawk nose and a thin, tight-lipped face.

His eyes rose toward the sky, strange points of still lightning glinting like a baby girl's newly cut eyeteeth. Cold light, but he did not shiver from the chilled dampness that clung to his long stringy hair hanging behind his ears. Muscles tensed and flexed beneath a mist of sweat, thick eyelashes unblinking.

He hefted his throwing stick, tracing the dried sinew and blood stuck to the wooden handle, felt the weight of it and the comfort of the spear hooked to the end, several feet in length, the rough, crude looking flint point flaked into shape with precision. Robust and deadly. A whistle shot into the air. His dark eyes lowered and his bark brown feet dug into the ground, ready to spring.

II

A rumbling snort shook the water of the shallow pond, reeds bending with snapping protest against the weight of the mammoth as it collapsed. A wail escaped the adult bull, already injured from a recent fight, fatal to man, as spears flung from atlatl's rang through the opening horizon to stick into hide and lung, an eye and skull, dying the blue clay red.

Wading into the water the band ripped into the carcass, skinning and cutting flesh and bringing it to shore, blades and sharp knives shaving ribs and husking legs. Some men stood watch on the bank,
spears raised in a gesture of warning to other hungry animals, cat and bear. A young boy ran to tell the women.

The useful parts taken, the Columbian mammoth was left in its place, virtually nothing left but a mass of bones that lay partially submerged in the black water. New shelters made, strips of drying meat hung from branches, he stood and watched, fingering a piece of chert, his daughter asleep against his leg.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Migration

Life is migrating. Last weekend nearly 200 Monarch butterflies followed a valley near here on their journey south - they fluttered in a line not far behind my father's house. I didn't see them, but can't help but imagine orange against blue. This poem has nothing to do with butterflies, but it's pertinent, anyway.


Autumn at 5

Weeds curl around ankles-
clouds jump across sky-
storm clouds fat
with heat and air and gray
with left over goose feathers and down.
Hands slide across legs-
a coarse stone bench- stone
sweating from heat,
dripping muddy drops that soaked
into my socks, coloring them black.
I held a tiny fragment of rock to my cheek,
smelled it, ran my tongue
over it to taste the fine salt
and dissolve it between my teeth.
I leaned back, hands spread
like basket handles. It began to rain.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Poppies

I've been debating on posting poetry. Yes? No? Will anyone even read it? My decision is "Yeah, why not?" So, here's a poem that I wrote six or so years ago. "Tell the truth, but tell it slant." - Emily Dickinson


Poppies

Father sits on the front porch,
on the edge where
sun hits flaked cement
warm to his slippered toes
and iced tea. Mild. No sugar.
No lemon.
Finches and sparrows fly
around his cracked plastic birdfeeder,
Grosbeaks and red-breasted somethings
peck at the contents, spitting
and breaking black seeds.
Shells litter the grass.
I watch father’s eyes droop,
my spade cutting into earth,
halved worms tossed
with dandelions and worn red poppies.
My fingers dig up roots
while sheets overhead curl
in beams of yellow sun.
The clothesline strung.
On the edge.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Leopard-Print Pajamas

It's three minutes after midnight. I should have gone to bed an hour ago. My son has been asleep since 9:30, and I'm sure he'll wake up screaming by 2. Two is a big number around here: my son turns two on Sunday, October 8th; two is one of his new words; I always wake up at 2 a.m. But, I don't like the number. I prefer to write "6".

I missed it - 12:07 a.m. I can finally fit into my pre-pregnancy PJs. I've lost 38 pounds since the beginning of May...or the end of April. But, you don't care about that, do you? This is my first post on my first blog. Is this working? Can you SEE me?